For sale: parachute, only used once, never opened, small stain.

the sound of loud drummings that hurts your ears and sync with your heartbeat, how i long for those, it immediately puts me back into a jamming room, the comfort of it, unsettling, not wanting to disappoint your band mates but yet still having the best time of your life, feeling like a rockstar even without an audience. Coming down here have been a mixed blessing, i get a second chance to restart my life, yet letting go of my old one is too hard.

bah you've heard me rant on and on about that issue countless of times, so i'm just gonna stop bitching about it, heck i wanted to come here, i couldve just stayed back at home and studied in itm or somewhere, but i prayed for an escape, so here i am, and im glad. Especially since my uni is just starting on Wednesday. It sucks having to take a year out, not knowing of how your life is gonna work out, not having control over your own destiny, having a vision, without a path to even begin the first step with. It sucks watching your friends moving on with their lives, passing you by, with you knowing that at one point, you were all on an even playing field, but there is nothing you can do, not even rant about it, cos deep inside, you knew that you couldve done something about it. but the moment is gone and theres nothing else to do but move on, look forward and move on.

i guess this is where having friends comes in handy, they are there for you(please forgive this hallmark moment), they look past your failure, encourage you to hold your head up high and be strong about it. we all have our moments i guess, but you guys have no idea how much you mean to me. i'd like to take this chance to give a shout out to the people i didnt get to say goodbye to before i left, i'm sorry, dont take it personally, i was such in a rush in the last week i didnt even get to see my girlfriend, i love you sayang. bukan ko la apek, hahahaha

apek you owe me for the client, i shall claim my loot when i return tahun depan, besides that, i am sooooo looking forward to serj tankian's solo album, yeay!

guess that about wraps it up, my classes starts on the 15th with orientation on the 10th, my life is now back on track, will prolly update after raya...

take care folks, selamat hari raya and my sincerest apologies to all ive done wrong to, maaf zahir batin