Friday, June 20, 2008

breaking benjamin - no games

Masculinity.. what is it? No seriously what is it? Is it the justification for a man hitting his wife over what to cook for dinner? Is it the notion that a man cannot act camp or effeminate in front of other men? Or is it the basic idea that a man must be a provider and he is an 'other' if he fails to do so?

Masculinity is an ideology thats been around since the dawn of time itself. In whatever belief system that you have faith in, masculinity is there since the very beginning. If you are an evolutionist, then, the idea of masculinty is there with the cavemen, heck it even came with the idea of being a 'caveman'. Masculinity can be easily defined as a man is not man lest he provide shelter, food and safety to his family. This definition is still justified until today. If you're into creation, then the definition towards this ideology is still pretty much the same. Man is to work off this land and what not. However this is more towards the classical view of masculinity, where they also justify man's reign over women, and thus should not be relied on.

Ideologies dont change, they evolve. Ever wondered why 14 year old boys act the way they do? You know what I mean, pushing each other in public, talking about masturbating out loud, over-masculine basically. Well, put yourself back to your teenage days. The days when we are confused, searching for our identity. Being lost, we tend to over-act the way that society intend our genders represent. Thus now you see why tween girls put on 5 inches of make up on, now you know why boys vandalise public phones, its the biological equivalent of mountain goats headbutting each other or lioness prancing about... mmeh where was i, oh yes. Masculinity, dare I say it , is down to the power of the penis.

Phallic power suggest that since men are able to penetrate and is not the penetratee, they are then a creature a step above the other members of the species. This is as how you say it.. err.. utter bullshit, however the power of the penis is highly important to the male species in order to feel masculine. This is evident in the movie fight club. Remember the scene with the testicular cancer group? Ask yourself this question, why did Bob with big tits cry? Why I hear you ask? well its because he cannot feel masculine, in turn he cannot be a provider, hence he does not embody masculinity, this alone can drive a straight man nuts..

i would love to rant more, but im too tired. so go away.. to send hatemail, please click comments, oh and izzy, check the lyrics to the song title above, tell me if i interpret it right?

Sunday, June 15, 2008

sebab mel suruh aku update

yeah... its been god knows how long its been since i even glanced at my own blog... sangat sedih right.... anyhoots, whats new ah? went back to malaysia twice this year, sorry to those people that i didnt get to see when i went back, i mean geez, collectively i was in malaysia for a fortnight, so tak cukup time, sorry kengkawan! i am on hols right now, but since i already went back twice, akie is now waaaay to broke to even consider getting a plane ticket, so frak that!

i miss my bandmates, i really do, im learning how to play the guitar right now, all due to metalocalypes, if you guys dont know what that is, go look it up you ignorant foo's! i now understand how failure can sometimes be a blessing in disguise, for further information on this, please find me elsewhere as i'd rather not talk about it when theres about, well err... 5 other people reading this..

i've been learning japanese... only the naughty stuff really, i mean come on, thats the first things that you get when you learn a language anyway.

abang aku got married, congrats to him, this was the reason for my second trip home.

anyhoots, i dont feel like blogging anymore... not in this post anyway, this one is merely an update on my life, for my fwens out there who are too malas to nudge me on msn or call me.. so im gonna start another post now...